A Junction...

I didnt think i would write in xanga again but this may be the next best place to write after a diary....

Im still in LA, working at a reputable design firm 12 hours a day, 5 but recently 6 days a week. I come home late, whip up a meal, read a little and 6 hours of shut eye later I find myself commuting to work on the same road as a thousand others,  yet alone in my brand spanking new, shiny black Scion TC - I have never felt so empty. I question. How long must this go on for?  Is this the life i really want? Is my life unfolding in this manner by volition or is society subconciously dictating it?

Those who know me the longest would never guess me to be the 9-5 office dwelling kinda guy. But here I am typing at my desk on a bright sunny saturday morning. Is this not a sad existence? The problem with me is that I have never known what I want. Or maybe I am trying to avoid what I want on a subconcious level for fear of upsetting others and society itself...

So having worked for 4 months. I am presented with the opportunity to embark on expeditions including a 3 week drive from london to mongolia, exploring the north pole and lots more travelling around the world. Most people say they would love to go but are held back by work or finance. I say its fear. Fear of what society considers normality. When in a life time do we get presented with opportunities as such. Tell me what you think.... Should I take the road less travelled?

Billy.

My 21st birthday day carrot cake ...... Carol's creation! notice how i only have 1 candle...mm.......

Hahahah.....wat a weird pic...turned out pretty funky

Carol literally chilling by the jacuzzi she refuses to go into..... such a nice view.....love goin up there!!

The Getty!!! We went here for my birthday.....been wanting to come here for a while.. the architecture is well nice and the galleries...well....awesome!

Heres a series of photos...1st carol looks funny...

...then I look funny...

...then i guess we just gave up and Carol got mad...

Carol looking very inquisitive???

Venice beach with Carol and Jerie...hahha Baby i know u hate this photo...

Pity my leg's still healing....no surfing. :(

Me looking merry with my first legal pint  ...mmmm

It was a good 21st....gone be back in HK at the end of the month...cant wait!

Finally got pics to show y'all.....sorry cameras been missing for a while.

The Lads!! Kosei, Herman, Peter, ME, Jeff, SeYeon

New Years!! Shermon, Siobhan, ME, Carol, JEff

My bro and his girl......this is for u bro....nice pic OW!!!!

Need i say more!!

My bros and JAZ!! miss u guys!!

Christmas eve, Simon, Ricky, Carol, ME, Kosei, Eugene, Steph, Ken

Christmas mornin!!

Peters first pic on his new flashy camera

Anyways thats all for now...check back later...-lates

Been a while since i have written. Leg is still broken so still aint done shit... not gonna be able to walk until after christmas which is really annoying cuz i was hoping to party with y'all. Anyways......the last couple of days made me realise how fragile love can be.....one day ur madly in love, and the next its over.......IS that even possible???.....how can a relationship end so abruptly if you were in love with a person so deeply?? Often i feel people do things at the heat of moment and then often regret so but has too much pride to admit it. Me and my gurl are lucky enough to not be in this situation and honestly don't think we will ever end up in this situation.........so for my peeps who are goin thru bad times right now.....remember, everything happens for a reason and unless you move forward, one will never find out what that reason is.....